Beyond Words






She stopped talking just before Christmas several years ago
Her decision did not seem riddled by desperation or depression
In fact, she seemed content with her silence
Quite sound and empowered
She continued to show signs of affection and warmth
All and all she was her warm and loving self.
One winter's day she took her favorite rocking chair and
Dragged it carefully down the hall to her special room
Of books, sentimental trinkets, crystals in the windows
She stayed there for hours and hours
Listening to time worn musical CD’s
And perusing photo albums of days long past.
She had written a letter to her daughter with whom she lived
Explaining her choice to no longer talk
With apology she wrote about seeking
Peace and quiet
And reconciliation with her maker
She promised to write down her thoughts and requests.
A family meeting had been called to discuss
This unfortunate turn of events
Had she gone over the edge
Was she to be sent to a hospital
What about the holidays and guests
Her daughter allayed all their fears.
She knew how sensitive her mother was
Understood her needs in her remaining years
A room with sunshine through the windows
Was set up for painting and writing
A wicker chair with a flowered chintz cushion
Was carefully placed near her mother’s easel.
It was her daughter’s hope that in this room
Her mother would softly speak
Talk about her memories and
What she would like to eat or do
It took some time and effort
Hours of silence and an open heart.
She ate her meals with the family
Clapping her hands quietly and briefly at the end of the repast
She always removed her own dishes
And tidied the counter and sink
She would water the African violets on the sill
Everyone adjusted very well.
One day the daughter brought her mother
A fresh bouquet of flowers from the garden her mother loved
She placed the flowers on a small table covered with a linen cloth
Her mother was quietly painting, listening to
Classical music as she worked at a watercolor painting of flowers
As her daughter leaned down to give her mother a kiss, a small voice said “Stay..."
Then they talked together of days gone by and her mother’s needs.
"I would love to go for a ride in the car
A long drive in the woods
Maybe see some water or streams”
They embraced one another
And the daughter said “Yes.”
They went to a pond and some woods
And stepped out of the car to the sweet smelling air
Loons floated on the water nearby
Their lonely calls beckoning
The water kissed the shore
Both women smiled and understood.
On the way back they stopped for ice cream
The daughter ordered chocolate knowing her mother’s favorite
Together they sat at a table and exchanged thoughts and quiet laughter
The mother’s grey/white hair moved slightly in the breeze
A tear fell down the side of her face
She looked at her daughter, saying “thank you," then softly “I love you.”
SWM
March, 2010



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